I dont know what to say but I just want to talk. I feel so alone and I feel that I will find some solace through writing. Tears fall on my keyboard and I know my computer cant cheer me up, But then who can?
My best friends are so far away though I know they are always ready to help me
But maybe, what I want is just to be alone, or die or something.
God makes everybody for a reason..for a special purpose.
But I fail to see that in myself. What am I??
One in 7 billion? Somebody nobody really needs.
I dont really have anything that makes me stand out. Im just a puny hyper kid. As so so sooo many people will agree.
Im crying for god knows what reason but sometimes I just HATE myself. What can I do? Nothing, really.Nothing that anybody else cant do.
I know Im writing crap but since this is my blog, imma go ahead and do it.
There's an ache in my heart that hasnt left for the past two years. Once depression set in, it hasnt really left.
Some days are good and I laugh and I think, maybe everything i okay. But underneath it all there's this hurt that NEVER goes and I dont kow why.
Is it because of neglect? Because of some neurological disorder?
Sometimes I feel like I should just die already!
But yet when other people say it, I spout my philospophical crapabout being only so-so age and not having had experienced life as it truly is. Blah blah blah.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I think I'll just shut up now.
Words fail me right now so I'll let my tears take over.
My best friends are so far away though I know they are always ready to help me
But maybe, what I want is just to be alone, or die or something.
God makes everybody for a reason..for a special purpose.
But I fail to see that in myself. What am I??
One in 7 billion? Somebody nobody really needs.
I dont really have anything that makes me stand out. Im just a puny hyper kid. As so so sooo many people will agree.
Im crying for god knows what reason but sometimes I just HATE myself. What can I do? Nothing, really.Nothing that anybody else cant do.
I know Im writing crap but since this is my blog, imma go ahead and do it.
There's an ache in my heart that hasnt left for the past two years. Once depression set in, it hasnt really left.
Some days are good and I laugh and I think, maybe everything i okay. But underneath it all there's this hurt that NEVER goes and I dont kow why.
Is it because of neglect? Because of some neurological disorder?
Sometimes I feel like I should just die already!
But yet when other people say it, I spout my philospophical crapabout being only so-so age and not having had experienced life as it truly is. Blah blah blah.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I think I'll just shut up now.
Words fail me right now so I'll let my tears take over.
